I hesitate to use the word deserve. The word is used in ways, at times, that makes me think entitlement. Because of that small bias of mine, I’m going to use the word earn, instead.
I’ve tried, over recent years, to focus my energy on becoming a person that I can be proud of. The type of person that when met or engaged, others can’t do anything but respect and treat with integrity. I’ve worked, I’ve dedicated, I’ve learned, I’ve explored and I’ve taken risks. I will continue to do so. I’m happy with me. I’m happy with who I am currently and the person I know I’m developing into. I think I’ve earned a few things that I haven’t yet received. I suppose I’ve been waiting for someone to hand me the treasurers (whatever they may be) that I’ve declared that I’ve “earned.” I’m an idiot.
The work to get the things you want should never stop. I should have figured by now that things will not be handed to me. I’ve been enlightened and it’s time to act. I’m ready to take on a bigger part of my world…
A friend of mine (retired at 30) told me the other day when asked “what are you up to these days” he answered, “just floating through life.” The answer baffled me. I told him “Never float – start kicking.” He laughed. I thought about it for a while, and I discovered that I’ve been floating too. I’m gliding through my life taking advantage of the opportunities that I’ve been given, never quite taking hold of my own destiny. I’ve always waited for the next thing instead of creating it for my self. I need to start practicing what I preach, so to speak. I need to start kicking my ass off.